MY DEMONS

FORGOTTEN INNOCENCE

2008-01-28T16:07:00.000-05:00

FORGOTTEN INNOCENCE

Gibberish by Zayury

Pictures by Zayury

Another long day.... It never changed. Wake up alone...shower, dress, maybe a quick coffee, and out the door. All day at a meaningless job...then here.... A few drinks later go back to the loneliness.... Sometimes not alone but always lonely.... The woman looked around the bar, she avoided eye contact. She didn't want to be bothered with small talk, she just wanted to drink...

To her surprise a little girl jumped on the barstool next to her, and greeted her. "Hi!"

"Well, hello! Aren't you a little young to be here?"

"It's okay they can't see me!"

"Really?! Okay, if you say so! Where are your parents?

"They're busy right now."

"I see...."

"Where are your parents?"

"Well...my mom passed away a few years ago..."

"That's so sad... What about your dad?"

"Don't know...don't care."

"That's strange?! I love both my parents! I love my daddy a lot! I just don't get a chance to see him much...he travels a lot."

"Oh... I bet that's hard."

"Yes, I miss him when he's gone. He is so handsom, and funny!"

"Once when he came back from one of his trips, he went to pick me up at school, and all my friends were so jealous! He looked so handsome in his beautiful new red car!"

"Must be nice...to feel that for your dad..."

"Doesn't everyone love their dad?"

"No little one, not everyone does."

"I love mine a lot! I feel so safe when he holds me! Some of my friends don't have a daddy...I feel so sad for them, but I'm happy that I have a daddy!"

"I'm glad for you little one. I just don't understand those feelings. I can't relate to feeling anything for a father."

"You did once...."

"Excuse me?!"

"You loved your daddy once didn't you? When you were a little girl?"

"I don't remember being a little girl.... All I remember is pain, disgust, and fear...."

"It's that why you don't remember me?"

"What? Little one, I've never met you! You better go home now you might get in trouble if they see you here. Besides I'm getting ready to leave."

"Wait, you do know me.... I'm..."

"No I don't! You are a very sweet and nice little girl, I'm sure I would remember if I had ever met you... I'm sorry, but I think you are confused."

"You do..."

"I don't know you! We have never met! Good-bye little one!"

"You do know me.... I'm you..."

THOSE 7 SINS

2008-01-23T16:14:00.000-05:00

THOSE 7 SINS

Lyrics by ShadowSpirit

Pictures by ZAYURY

Walking up right, prowling the rest.

Vanity is your name, with only one thing to say.

Loving this deeply I've always wanted more.

Kill this beginning.

I want everything you desire to own.

Having what you have will bring to me a moment at peace.

Wishing won't make this better.

My eyes can see everything.

Closed.

You expect from me a side that I shall never show.

More is what I want.

More is what you need.

I have nothing for you here.

Can't take it anymore.

Disappear.

Your here once again with that crazy look to kill.

But murder in blood is not on your mind.

Wanting, needing, something more.

Why? Is that what your here for?

....You have given yourself to this sin.

Frustration, I have no power.

This feeling takes over and keeps hold.

Shaking all my elements.

Sick is what I've become.

The devil has found me.

No where to hide.

Selfish is what you are, and trust.

One question with no answer.

Wanting can never be satisfied.

It is only what you make it.

You are my possession.

It's the last straw.

Can't move with this mental grasp.

Fading out.

Not much time.

All choices have been taken.

I no longer own myself.

Reaper calls my name.

Count them all one by two, two by one.

Each is a step closer to my heaven.

And another to your hell.

Let them roll on and on.

Never let it fucking end.

You have no choice.

Start again....

TIME OUT

SEE MY EYES

2007-10-18T16:04:00.000-04:00

SEE MY EYES

Gibberish by Zayury

Pictures by Zayury

"I'm leaving for work now sweetheart... your daddy came home tired so don't make to much noise. I love you sweetie be a good girl..."

Mami... see my eyes... see what I'm trying to say...

"We'll be fine, go you're going to be late."

MAMI... SEE MY EYES... see what I'm saying...

DON'T LEAVE ME... DON'T GO!!!!

Mami please... don't leave me with him... can't you see my eyes... as soon as you close the door... it's going to happen again... mami......

NOOOOOO!!!!

I RECEIVED FLOWERS TODAY

2007-10-16T16:01:00.000-04:00

I RECEIVED FLOWERS TODAY!

Translation by Zayury

Pictures by Zayury

This Sim story is based on a poem my dear mother read in the Spanish newspaper, "El Latino American", March 11, 1998 issue. The title was "Hoy Recibi Flores", but unfortunately the author's name was not listed. This poem means a lot to me so I translated it in order to share it with you. WARNING: Not suitable for children, contains adult situations and violence.

I received flowers today! It wasn't my birthday or any other special day;

We had our first argument last night; He said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me; I know that he regrets it and that he did not want to say the things he said;

Because he sent me flowers.

I received flowers today! It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day;

Last night he pushed me against the wall and he started to choke me; it seemed like a nightmare, but one wakes up from a nightmare and realizes it isn't real;

I woke up this morning, aching and with bruises all over my body, but I know he regrets it,

because he sent me flowers today.

I received flowers today! It wasn't Valentines Day or any other special day;

Last night he beat me up and threatened to kill me;

This time not even make-up nor long sleeves could hide my cuts and bruises; I couldn't go to work...I didn't want anyone to find out, because I know he regrets it;

Because he sent me flowers today.

I received flowers today! And it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day;

Last night he hit me again,

and it was worst than the other times;

But if I leave him, what am I going to do,

how am I going to take care of my children?

And money?

I'm afraid of him, but I'm scared because I depend on him for everything!

But he regrets it.

Because he sent me flowers today.

I received flowers today...

Today was a very special day -

today was my funeral;

Last night he finally killed me -

he beat me to death; If only I would've had the courage and strength to leave him;

The shelter for abused women could have helped me, but I did not seek their help;

That is why for the last time...I received flowers.

(Dedicated to all abused women)